Psy Time! (Seems like I stole your title dear...)

[magnacarta]

I don't know why I'm writting this exactly. Maybe it's just like therapy, y'know. And I'm not stupid enough to think that I don't have issues. I do, lots of them. I don't feel comfy with lots of people, I'd even say the majority of them, and that'll be my first issue. I don't even know if it's normal; I get skittish when some people - even though I know them, and all - interactes in any form with me. It's just plain weird in my eyes. And then, there's all the issue of people knowing me. I could count friends that knows me relatively well with the little half of one hand, and that's because they spent the majority of high school in my company. I guess that's the main reason I always surprise people... Not sure I should be proud. How the hell should I get out of that? It's like my survival instincts are pretty fucked up, or maybe it's just that the world in general is one big wolf... Who knows?


I always found it funny that I got any friends at all. It's not like I won't preserve the friendships I've got, but I just never knew how to get 'em in the first place.


That said, I dare you all out there that are reading my poor pathetic ramblings to psy me...

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

You shouldn't ever mentionned the term "psy me"... I won't resist to such a temptation to use my five cent skills to try to solve your situation...
First, you should know that whatever society can make you believe, it is quite rare to say that you have more real and good friends than fingers on one hand... Most of the time, you'll have one, two or even three person you feel really close and have a strong friendship.
Next, the number of ordinary friends is more specific to each one of us than common to everybody. I'll call that the social needs level. Some people just have the need to always be with many persons, interacting and have fun. My father was said to be like that by the way. On the other hand, some other will have a low level of social needs, and who'll be perfectly satisfied to speak to two of three persons outside their family without having any real relationship with co-worker outside professional one. In fact, when you feel upset about people trying to interact with you, it's probably caused by the fact that your level of social needs is already reached and your mind want to focus on something else than Public Relations.

Annother reason to such reactions can be the incompatibility between the timing, the type or the manner somenone wants to interact with you and your own parameters (timing etc). Conventions dictates us to contain ourselves in such situation but there's no reason to feel guilty about feeling aggressed or upset because of a incompatibility. If this impression keep going on without any changes or if you don't feel happy with that fast pronostic, you know what to do...

PS: J'espère que mon anglais est comprenable, vu que tu te donnes la peine de commenter en français mon blog, j'ai tenté de répondre dans la langue du message.
Le 15.II.2005
Vincent Gauthier

[cabayuki.livejournal.com]

Nan, your english is pretty good =) Commente comme tu veux; en français, en anglais, en franglais... T'as l'embarras du choix! Et tu sais, il se pourrait que t'aie raison... Je vais analyser ça.


Et puis, j'ai été quelque peu capoté hier, donc ne pense pas que je suis une déprimée/dépressive chronique lol


Anyway, à tantôt!